Every few days google assistant comes up with our pictures from years ago with the tag “same day, xxxx year” and I get transported to those olden times of how I looked, often comparing that picture with my present day self.
A decade ago if someone had told me I would have short hair or wear jeans and a tee, I would have laughed at their face. Growing up, the most modern dress I got to wear was a skirt, that too ankle length. I had a couple of them that I treasured a lot. Never owned a pair of pants or even tracks until I moved to Bangalore. My first pair of jeans happened because I had to wear one for my team outing. Now don’t laugh at me when I say this. I went into a shop, asked for a blue jean and got one for 400rs in the men’s section that had to be trimmed in length. I didn’t even know there were jeans specifically for girls, so that’s how knowledgeable I was fashion wise.
I owned my first set of make up while getting married. I precisely used it for a couple of times during the wedding and let the rest of it expire/dry up. The fact that I still have all those preserved for keep-sake, is a whole different story. I came to Bangalore with a tube of Fair & Lovely, a Kohl pencil and a bottle of eyeliner that worked best for making my bindi.
I got my first ever hair cut after a month of getting married. I still remember the shock on my dad’s and MIL’s faces on seeing how short my hair was. That was also the first time I couldn’t plait my hair. Nevertheless I tied it. So even after moving to Bangalore, I oiled and combed my hair to a plait every single day.
Flash forward to now. I own more than a couple of pairs of jeans and a handful of tracks. I have a few tees and a bunch of tops! Few years ago, I wouldn’t have dared stepping out of the house in a t-shirt but now, I feel comfortable and not awkward wearing one.
I got two shades of proper lipsticks and wore it to work on many good days. My make-up had a revamp thanks to these minor additions. Otherwise, it is still the basic cream, kohl and eyeliner for bindi. I don’t know if I will explore more or have the patience/time to try it out every day but for someone like me, it is a big step to even wear lipstick to work.
In November last year, the sister and I got a haircut done together and my hair was cut much shorter. For a couple of days, I let my hair free at work and didn’t feel awkward. I had to constantly make sure I didn’t like a zombie which was difficult but I loved doing that. It was a startling change from how I regularly tie my hair that many noticed and a few complimented too.
I have come a long way. I am glad I am trying new things without feeling overly conscious or awkward. There are far many number of things I want to try or do but don’t feel ready yet. Probably I should let go and give a couple of them a trial 🙂