These few days have been really tough to cope up with. I had been hearing one bad news after another and there has been a lot to deal with. And that led me question a lot of things in life. I was wondering how I question God and life, as soon as gloom hits and the same is not true when something good happens. Like I have never asked Him why me when I am happy. Then is it really fair to ask it when I am sad? I don’t know. I don’t even know if I am making any sense. This is how I have been this entire week.
In other news, I have been promoted at work. This was a pleasant surprise, something I have not been expecting at all. Last year was a mixed bag of too many things and I was too busy concentrating on my work that promotion or even hike slipped my mind. Though I was speechless, happy and all that, I don’t know how I feel about this. Deep within, I have always wanted to move to Chennai and hoped that it would happen atleast this year. This promotion has brought back things to square one. And I am not sure how exactly I feel about this.
There’s also this other thing I had been dying to share with you people – I am just not sure how it fits in all that’s happening in my life. S and I have bought a new flat in Chennai. Yes, in the hopes of moving closer to our roots. And no, I don’t see any move happening this year. Its been quite some time we have been occupied with choosing the wall colors, floor tiles etc etc and anytime now, we could get the key to our home! 🙂 I wanted to slip in this news, when I would announce you all of our move to Chennai and since that’s not happening anytime soon, here I am.
Amma is not keeping well, and this is something I am not able to take out of my mind. Though there isnt anything urgent or serious that we need to attend to immediately, she has to be in doctor’s care soon. I don’t even want to remind her or think of another surgery. I am diverting myself to Him again. How I wish, I can be with her all the time. Sigh.
I am at those cross roads right now, where its up to me to decide whether I want to be happy or sulk. I am choosing to smile, to move forward – which feels right. I guess its time I start putting up my happy pics here. I am so missing the challenge on this blog and something feels amiss when I only do it on my mail. So people, be prepared to my everyday posts again 🙂