Staying all alone in a silent house is something I hate to the core. I can’t really stand that void feeling that surrounds the house after S leaves. Silence seems to daunt me. I either leave the TV on high volume or make myself busy talking on the phone. Past two days, I could do neither of it. The noises from the construction going on just outside my house was more than enough, I didnt want to make myself more irritating with the boring TV. Yesterday, I almost created a scene while he was getting ready for the office. I wanted him to take leave.. how sweet it would have been if he stayed with me, for the whole day – not doing a thing. Sigh! It didnt happen. This guy keeps speaking of kadamai-kanniyam-kattupadu** (in true Vijaykanth style) and left to office. I was sulking for sometime, not knowing what to do. Since I wasn’t quite feeling well, I could have rested but a silent house made me restless. I immediately went into the kitchen and did some experiments. I am really not impressed with the outcome of the dishes that I prepared yesterday. Remember how I went on and on about finding the perfect yeast and all that? I think I jinxed it myself. My “Honey-Walnut Brown Bread” wasn’t as good as I expected it to be. But the other dish was a huge success – which was the “Coconut Cookies” I loved coconut cookies right from my childhood. Dad would take us to a bakery on Sundays and we would have fresh, hot from the oven coconut cookies. I am sure many would recollect those bakery coconut cookies from the childhood days. I was able to recreate the same taste after 10-15yrs 🙂
Honey Walnut Brown Bread – I wont share the recipe now, as there is some flaw in it. I will re-try it one more time and share my success story 😛
Though I enjoyed cooking so much, I really couldnt enjoy eating alone. I locked the goodies in air tight containers until S was back from office and then we munched them together. There cant be nothing more depressing than eating alone. I cant stand it at all. I would skip meals or make some maggi and survive on it for the entire day. Everytime S calls to check, I could feel a pain in his voice. He would almost beg me to make something and eat. But, I cant really eat alone 😦 The same happens when Amma calls me too. I would tell her that I ate something, else she will lose her peace. But amma being amma, will find out if I am starving even though she is miles away from me. Thats why these days, I try not to take leave even if I am unwell.
Today I felt something different. I had the urge to prepare something nice for the lunch (very much unlike me!) I had this wild idea which I put into action. I made “Spring Onion- Alfalfa Sprout Soup” and “Baked Corn Rice“. Sounds exciting isn’t it??? I totally totally loved while preparing both these dishes. See for yourself –
Doesn’t it look good? I was pretty happy as I managed to make these while attending two meetings over phone ( 🙄 ). Only on days I decide to work from home, the whole world conspires me into something like this which is another story, another post 🙂 By the time, I sat to take a dig, my gloominess attacked me again, I felt lonely. Most of it is untouched, waiting for S to be back home. Sigh!!
On a completely different note, we are going to Chennai for 6 days!!!!!!! yes 6 whole days 😀 I will be the most pampered daughter and daughter-in-law 🙂 Its going to be a much a much needed break!
P.S – I have also updated my food blog with all these recipes and linked them back here. I guess I have many other recipes to share, which I will do soon 🙂